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● Monday, January 11, 2010
The very first day which I can actually sleep on my bed, watch my tv, play with my computer & just simply walk around the house. I feel great. Not like what I've experienced over at the hospital, stucked in a room for a week, with nothing. Just eat, sleep and stare. I am proud to say that I've passed thru this stage, of course with lots of difficulties, lots of tears....... I remember myself trying to swallow the medicine & choking on them. Having to take my blood every now and then that I have 14 holes on my body now. It's over, JIAJIN, IT'S OVER. You passed thru it, you did it. It just hurts me, all the flashbacks. A very very long nightmare that I longed to wake up. Now, please pray that my family members are okay. Please. I don't want any of them to be sick. I don't want them to pass thru what I've went thru. Please let my dad be okay. He have to... Please, with all my heart... It hurts seeing him losing so much weight. I promise I will take good care of him now. & to my sis and mum, please let them have a good slp and stop worrying abt us. & to my bro, for the blood test to be negative. 2010 been a bad start for my family. I don't know what will happen, I am scared. I just want us to be okay, & laugh like we usually do... Please, get well soon, fast. I really thank them for what they did & are still doing. For coming to visit me and staying over. I don't know how to show them I really love them... But I really do... Just let us get thru this stage together and what awaits us are just even better days. I've learnt so much abt life this week. I am going to grow up. I am not that protected anymore. You know, life isn't as great as what you think. You have to grow up. Yes I have to. I have a week of MC & I have no idea how am I going to handle my block test next week. I don't want to feel demoralized after taking it, like obviously. Haven even started at Physics. I know I shouldn't be worrying abt exam but ya, just worried. Please, let everyone of us be ok. My love ones... I dun wan to see another dengue patient. Stay strong. Sometimes, I'll laugh to myself, thinking how stupid I am... to actually cherish friends who don't cherish me. To think that they still care and so on. Wake up, they don't give a shit of you. Wake up jiajin, wake up. Right before you, are the ones who you have to give ur heart to. Let us be ok. |
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